startled. puzzled , baffled , frightened , Perplexed.
I am living in a world where even 100% is not enough…
Scared about my future….. so many questions flashing in my mind but the one that actually makes me go numb is--à in this fight for success can values even exist..? Forget winning..??
I have been through thick and thin in short everybody has I am no one different but this great leap after 12th this will actually cause a huge vacuum in me and my thinking..!
It is so freaking complex... Relationships, me, future..!! These three things go to different directions
I have no idea how to bind them together… all I aim is I don’t want to lose the innocent child within me.. who still asks for sweets on every little occasion, who still wants his mother to tap his back , who still wants his elder sister to protect him when his father is angry…
I still want it
I really do
Sometime growing is not that good..!
I don’t know what future has in store for me but what I know is what I have stored in myself I am not letting that to be stolen from me..!
Yes, yes, yes I am competitive but not to the extent that I myself can’t recognize me…! It’s tough to let go and still be patient but it’s even tougher to let go when you actually want it..!
After 50 years also I want to be the same…. It’s all fantasy I know that yet I want it to be true..!!
I want to be me..!
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