love vs friendship....(short story)

Now, it is a complex story so please pay attention. Abhi is a very old friend of mine. Even though his age is 25, seven years elder to me, we have always had a great time whenever we have hung out.

I met his girlfriend on the celebration of Christmas eve. And my only reaction was Oh-My-God. Trust me when I say she was drop dead gorgeous. The perfect eyes, skin, hair and what not. She seemed to have descended from the heavens. She was out of this world, like a Miss World or something.

I wouldn’t say there were instant sparks between Abhi’s girlfriend and me.  We became friends from that point .We  were as comfortable together as a guy and girl can be. And then, it ended. Because love always just has to interfere.

Love ruins friendships. Every single time. And especially if it is one-sided. But whose fault is it? She told me not to fall in love with her. She was out of bounds. Committed to someone else. And I had promised I would take care of that. We decided to be friends. And just that.

But, both of us knew something was going to happen. It was until next time things actually ’happened’ between her and me. I wish I could tell you how good she was.

But as it happens, love sees more complication and frustration than friendship. The grass on the other side always seems snazzier. It’s not the girl’s fault that she starts to feel for her me.

So is it my fault, then? Wasn’t I told categorically not to fall in love with her? She was someone else’s. I knew. But then, of course, you cannot plan love. You cannot decide to go against the basic laws of the heart. You cannot stop it from feeling things it wants to feel. You are human.

Now Abhi’s life is no less complex in itself. He is 25 years old and has joined his Dad’s business. In spite of long struggle, he hasn’t been able to outshine his Dad to make a mark for himself. Every now and then, he gets drunk and calls me and asks what he is doing wrong?

I tell him the truth. I tell him he is an idiot and that’s what he is doing wrong.

To make the matters worse, Abhi’s girlfriend thinks very highly of me.

So, we become far more than just-friends. And we did realize that. Only – the label is still there. We are still not acknowledging what we feel for each other. It’ll only invite disaster. It was just not meant to be. She is someone else’s, remember? So they decide to stick with the label of just-friends. An unspoken, mutual decision, of course.

But then, love happens when you least expect it, love flowers again. Now between the just-friends(me and her). Bot between her and Abhi . Because yes, love has more complications and frustrations, but in the good times, it also has much higher high-points. And the feeling of being in love… of the loving someone and being loved… nothing surpasses that. And so, the love overtakes again.

And me? The friend? Of course, I’ll always be there, in the background, supporting her and being with her when she needs me. Loving her silently. Dying inside, seeing her happy with someone else. Cursing myself for resenting her happiness. I  should be happy that she is happy. I always knew she was not meant to be mine. i have no complaints.

So what was once just-friendship, had a short moment of love, I would not get over my feelings that easily. Especially with her being around me constantly, as they are best friends. Always there for each other.

And that girl would be happy with her guy (Abhi), the one she truly loves. But sometimes she’ll wonder… what it would have been like, had she been available. We would not have been just-friends, surely. There will be moments, when my love for her would not be so brilliantly veiled. And in those moments, she would feel pity for me… and would go back to her boyfriend.

she was in love with two guys at once For a moment,  but that is her little secret. The whole thing is way too twisted. She is unsure about her feelings, but is convincing herself what she thinks is right..

And the friendship? It is gone. And slowly, the complications and the frustrations in the friendship exceeds that in love. Told you, love ruins friendships.

Ps: love kills friendships, so it is wise to make certain boundaries or limitation in your heart and mind on who is who…. Whether he/she is your friend or your lover???