It was 2 in the morning, was speaking to one of my friend, over phone. Let me not get into the details, but the bottom line is: I realised only if I would have been a practical person knowing my priority I could have made a hell lot of difference in my life.
After messing around my life….. doing stuff which even I am guilty of, I thought will this time come back??? This is when it struck me from nowhere, why not set priority list to my life…… another messed up issue to sort!!!!
Priority list!!!! This was kinda interesting and challenging to me, as I knew most of what I don’t want rather than what I want in my life……. I prepared a cup of cappuccino to myself (cappuccino always make me go think deeper) and sat on my bed with parker in my hand to pen it down my so called priority list……
Studies?? Parents?? Career?? Love?? Friends?? Big words and I still don’t know where to put them on my priority list. Since child maa telling me, ‘beta! One day you’ll find your love and will get married’ so is love my priority?? Dad telling me, ‘beta! You have to make me proud and I know you will’ . so much confidence in me?? EXPECTATIONS!!! I will dad… I will… studies and career are my priority. Again confused… parents, love, studies, career blah.. blah!! Oh my god! It was a bad idea to even make a priority list. Experimenting and putting all my hearts and sinking in my degree class and studying, but again failed as someone complimented me for my smile and then I thought ‘she’s the one! The love of my life!! but let me be honest here my priority changed suddenly. After a month I realised, that people actually compliments you to mend their own ways! Saying and doing things under the blanket of friendship! Nobody is honest. When I thought I was one, then people thought I am faking it up as they did initially. So wy be honest!!
Just simply prioritise myself!! Whom to talk, whom to be with, whom to share things with, whome to trust and try to indulge in myself as that will give strength to walk happily through the beach side of my life. ……?
# fuck my life
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